Scrolls

2006-07-26T22:49:00.000-07:00

This is my post for the Casey. Hi, Casey!

You are my hero a lot of the time. I hope you know that, because it's true. YOu are so original, so cool and so totally awesome. I love you.

And I mean that in the straightest way possible.

Study Hall

2006-03-15T13:32:00.000-08:00

I am currently in Study Hall, contemplating the fates of two of my very good friends. I want them to be happy, but the way they are acting seems to be creating the opposite effect. I'm sad. boo. boo boo boo. boo. I've also written Hebrews 11:1 on my left hand (Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see) in Anglo-Saxon runes !is happy!
Also stumbled acrosss this sucker today:
I look around and see
the dull white shine of board-
It's taunting me.
Behind me in eternity
people shuffle and they sigh
The droning buzz that flies
around the place of prison
The infatuation of
an uneducated nation
with distraction and stupidity
Both taunting me.
in one of my many little notebooks. Must've been from a past English class. One I'm no longer in. It hurted my head last month before I left. Anyway. Was bored and typed it out.

Atomic Supplements

2006-03-14T22:17:00.000-08:00

I painted a picture on watercolor paper today. I used no paint. Want to know what I did use? I used organic dietary supplements, which I removed from their gel capsules. I also used some Frey 2003 organic chardonnay (mendocino). And some water. This smelled horrid. But the result was... an atomic bomb! Hah! The result of eating too much organicness! **will take photo and upload someday**

No Title

2006-02-17T18:31:00.000-08:00

There’s a place I know How do you know?
Where you’ll never cry Don't dry my eyes
You’ll never fear I'm not afraid
You’ll never care I don't care now

For anything but I care for nothing
but what’s right there Where is it?

And what’s right there What is it?
Is the most beautiful thing I don't agree with your view of beauty
that you’ve ever seen I'm far too blind
You’ve ever heard I don't want to listen
You’ve ever known I know nothing

Have I been there? Have you been there?
Not yet It's not really there.
I’m here for you You're here for you
Here with you I'm all alone
Here to help you I'm far too gone

Come with me I don't want to leave
Take my hand My hands are too cold
Let me show you I told you, I'm blind.

This place I know I don't want to go

He wants you there Like hell he does
He love you, you know No one loves me
He wants you to hear I'm not listening
Wants you there I'm staying here.

Stop lying to me I'm telling the Truth
I know you don't care I love you
he doesn't care I care
he isn't real I am real

He's waiting for you Leave me alone
He wants you so much I'll never leave you
Wants you to listen I can't hear you
Wants you care You're not listening
Wants you to want Him I don't want to
Wants you to know You just don't know it yet
Let Him in; Go away
He won't leave you I'm not leaving.

~*~

So finally you admit it I'm broken, Father
You're broken enough I don't know what to do.
He's still waiting Are You still there?
He's been waiting on you You said you would be...

He still cares My child, I love you
He's still there I haven't left you
Go to Him I've been here all along

Loooooooong Tyme...

2006-02-16T08:23:00.000-08:00

I haven't posted anything in awhile... wow, I sound depressed... I like mushrooms...

Mirror

2006-02-16T08:17:00.000-08:00

Get up here
Look in the mirror
This isn't me
What's this I see?

Doe the mirror lie?
Or is it me?

Empty Longing

2005-05-12T14:54:00.000-07:00

There's something
Out there

I don't know what it is

Where it is
Or when it is

But I know
It is there

Something sings
In soulful Sorrow

Come to me
Come to me

I'm waiting for you
Come and find me

And when I finally hear the call
I will answer

And I will follow the voice
To find that Something

And know what it is
Know what it is

I will know what it is

Why not?

2005-05-12T14:49:00.000-07:00

Why not go?
Why not dare?
Why not take the chance?

Gamble on a task
Play the Game of Life
Play that everlasting game
Until the day you die?

The worst possibility
In taking the ultimate chance
(of living)
Is dying

But what is worse
To die
(The Ultimate Adventure)
Or not to live?

Frozen Shadows

2005-05-12T14:48:00.000-07:00

Lying in time
In broken still water
Frozen through cold
Moment and era
Still and silent
In unmoving existence
Forever frozen shadows

Shadow and Pain

2005-05-12T14:40:00.000-07:00

This post used to be dark and depressive. I don't like that.

This world is full
of laughter and melody
Singing and joy
Happiness and merriment

But
What about
those without...
Without that joy of the world?

What of their world?
Their seems to be that of shadow and pain
Sorrow and anger
Outcast from laughter
Cut off from joy

Or maybe
They don’t want it
Maybe they do
And they can’t have it

They can’t have our
World of Joy
Our life of laughter

They don’t want it.

They lead their lives
in a world of
Shadow and Pain.

There's someone who can help them
If only you will look
And try to shine a light
into their empty life

They act as if they
do not want it

But blinded by the darkness
they know not what they want

Shine a light
Shine a light
though the thickest blackness
For darkness flees from light.

The River

2005-05-09T15:27:00.000-07:00

Down and away the river goes
Flowing fast from me
Past my feet the river flows
As far as I can see

The trees are growing tall and green
The wind is blowing at my back
The land is all that can be seen
And of adventure there no lack

*Does it suck?*

The Rose I Never Had

2005-05-07T16:20:00.000-07:00

The Rose I never had
Was a gift from someone
I saw
Every day and
Never thought
I'd want
A gift from
Someone
Like them.
But when the moment came
I saw them and wished
I'd never hated
Them
And wished
I had
A Rose.

Silent Lórien

2005-05-05T22:22:00.000-07:00

The dimlit night
Trees sway

Brushed by the
Breath of Night

The breath that
Passes through the silent
Branches

Pushing the tiny pinpoints
Of sparkling light
Around in the Darkness

The silent paths
Still clear of the
Leafy carpet on the ground

Leading every
Way
To empty trees
Long bereft of
Cheerful talk or
Solomn court

Now filled
With breathy whispers of
What's come and
Gone

What's been done and
Said
Happened and
Heard

In the silence
Of Lórien

Why I Can't...

2005-05-04T11:59:00.000-07:00

You want a reason
You
Always do
Because your mind
So small and incomplete
Can't fathom my reasons why
I don't think anyone can
Because
They won't take the time
And listen

Listen

Maybe you'll hear
Something
You need to know

Then

You'll hear me
And maybe care

Rather angsty... hmm...

Dancing Hobbits

2005-05-03T23:27:00.000-07:00

Bounce
Jounce
Up and down
UP! again
All about the table-top
Silly little Hobbits
Don't you know?
Don't you know what's
Gonna come
And what you're gonna
Do?
Don't you-- *crash*
Obviousely not.